Hi, it’s 11:03 pm on the 8th of November 2020.
Today was a busy day and I didn’t have the time to complete my daily to-do-list.
My ideal daily to-do-list:
- Practise guitar
So far I’ve crossed off reading, and writing off that list.
Unfortunately I don’t think I’ll have the time to do the rest because it’s already 11:12 pm and the remaining activities are not exactly the best for the night time.
But then again, “The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.”
So I guess it’s never too late to do it right now.
But nevertheless, I don’t want to.
Out of all the to-do-list errands, meditating and exercise I usually did every day.
But lately, I’ve been slacking and I can feel my grip on the habits slowly waning.
If it keeps happening I’ll probably get to the stage where I won’t want to do any of it anymore.
That’s what scares me, to start from square one from all the progress I’ve made since the start of the year.
But I guess using fear as a way to keep my routine isn’t the best way to go about it either.
Fear of failure, fear of mediocrity, fear of going back to who I was before.
Playing video games, scrolling through my phone for hours, laying around not doing anything for the whole summer.
The past 2 years have changed me for better. I don’t want to lose what I have right now.
My progress, my habits, and most of all my mental state.
Self-improvement is a constant grind that never stops.
It’s not like a video game where you can be level 100 and still be level 100 after a 1-year hiatus.
You could spend all day and night practising a hobby and risk losing it all by skipping just one day.
But I guess that’s just one way to think about it.
I’m pretty happy with where I’m at right now.
I know what’s important to me and what I should focus on.
Think it’s about time for bed, I’ll write soon, hopefully.